I told Tiffany today. She told me I had to be more confident in myself. And yes. Easier said than done.

Is there ever a need to say something blatantly obvious? Do we have to say it to remind ourselves that what we've said is true? Is saying something like that a sign of weakness? Or is it a sign of dignity?

Cavemen.

How come we cant just revert back to when we were all hunters and gatherers? I mean, it must have been so easy back then. None of all these stupid societal norms to deal with. Just... go and hunt or gather and do something else with the rest of your life. It all seems so easy. Better than the world we live in now, at least.

The Interwebs.

I dont really know why I'm writing this blog. I guess its a way for me to take note of the insane thought i have. I'm guessing at some point in life, I'm going to look back at all of this and see how weird I was. Anyways.

"Why, whats up?"

These kinds of statuses are so... sad? You go around liking these kinds of statuses to gain a sense of who you are yourself... to gain a sense of how others see yourself and how others would portray you. The uncertainty is kind of sad. I suppose on the contrary, its nice to know that there are people who arnt afraid to show a degree of compassion. "Words of kindness, that our poor hearts crave. Please dont keep them Hidden Away". Still. Its sad that the outlet for words is via internet. Our generation has become such a strange one. One where the internet has been woven into fabric of society. I guess I'm just making up excuses as to why I'm "socially retarded".

Gotta Be Somebody

I want someone to tell me theres someone for me out there. Theres Gotta Be Somebody.






I dont want to do this on my own.

XFactor week 5

KAtie and Treyc were in the bottom two and Treyc got voted out. Sucks for Cheryll but she didnt even pick one of them. Katie forgot her words (again...) and yet she was still put through. I was under the impression that she was a bitch. But I guess being a bitch is better than being boring. I never really liked Treyc's voice anyways. I thoought it was kind of muffle-y and nasal-y. Katie's going next week though. She's been in the bottom 2 like 3/5 times. Wtf?!

What the hell is your problem?

Leave me alone. I'm 16. All i want to be, is a normal 16 year old. But i cant. Because I'm gay. And on top of that, you want to fucking smother me. Leave me alone. Let me be a 16 year old kid and let me live my life. My childhood has fucking been ruined and guess what? I'm never getting it back. All of this stuff that i could be doing because i'm 16, cant be done. So many fucking reason. Leave me alone mother. Let me have a life.